Happy New Year! Well it's like a whole week into 2009 but whatever. Anyway...I'm going to try actually doing a devo this year! woooooooo. And to make sure that I don't just read them and forget..I'll try to post random thoughts and stuff that I learned from devos on here! Okay yesterday's wus about being righteous..and how Joseph tried to be righteous by not blabbing to people about Mary being pregnant and just to dismiss her quietly..but then an Angel appears and tells him not to be afraid to take Mary as his wife, cause "the child conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit". So he changes from being righteous in a moral ..traditional sense..to righteous in the sense of being obedient to a divine person, even if it was against his initial..traditional morals (: HUM. I think.. being righteous is just to follow God's steps..no matter what. Even if you have to "step out of your comfort zone" and do something ppl don't normally do like Joseph staying with Mary when he found out she was pregnant!..which is pretty brave of him btw. I mean he's a nice enough guy to decide not to make a huge dealio out of the Mary is pregnant and Im not the father thing or publicly humiliate her..I mean we see shows nowadays with all that drama abt OMG im not the father and that already goes crazy..but to have so much faith in God and knowing that he has incredible plans for him..he stays with Mary..that's pretty kickass of him. Okay my thoughts are all over the place.
ANYWAY. Righteous is basically doing the right thing. butttt.. in this context..it's doing the right thing for God. It's not as easy as it sounds..cause you gotta have trust him completely..cause if you don't..then you just get scared.
Okay. Maybe if I have time tomorrow..I'll blab about the devo that I will be doing today! (:
Ha-lo. It's Dec. 17th and I'm just sitting in my room, chilling. It's snowing outside so I can't go out (my mom won't let me!). Did some shopping yesterday with my mom..was going to go again today with Jaqi but again, it's snowing. In reference to my previous post, I've bought a coat, grey's season 4 and some presents, though not all. Still got some shopping to do! Anywho, I've been feeling slummy lately but hopefully what I've got to look forward to this week will make me feel better (:
Let's see...I am.. - SHOPPING SOME MORE! (Can't go wrong with that.) - Baking! Tiramisu, Cheesecake, Xmas Cookies and mayyybe a chocolate cake - Breakfast with Santa! yay! - Xmas eve Service! - _______________ (hehehe)
Okay Im going to go watch more Grey's lol.
God, I pray that in the midst of all this Christmas hustle & bustle, I don't lose you. (:
WOOT. I'm doneskies with my exams! Well I finished two days ago, actually. Just bumming around now not doing much. Somewhat bored, but it still beats studying! I've got a ton of plans though for the next week! What's new so far in my life anyway?
Yesterday I rented a drumset. SUPER psyched to get better at it and play with the team. Dyed my hair purple today! WOO! I was going to just get blue streaks but apparently it wouldn't turn out well so I opted for purple. Going to be on worship team for the last two weeks, going to have a Jam session, Worship team get together, Praise night of some sort, and Christmas Eve Service! Ahhh what else what else? Starting mentorship, Baking a Tiramisu, a cheesecake and cookies next week...and my Driver's test to get my N is this monday! (I hope I pass :D) OOo and Christmas shopping! Here's a list of stuff I MUST buy:
- Coat (one of those pea coats but a lil longer!) - Grey's Anatomy Season 4/ Moonlight Resonance - Presents! - Clothes - a Kid! (well Okay I'm not buying a kid. I just want to sponsor one from World Vision) - Car Accessories! - New straightener. Definitely.
UMM Since the last time I blogged things are pretty different. Finals are almost coming to an end. Its 3:16AM right now and approximately five hours until my bio final. After my Bio I'll have only ONE Final left: Calculus. Whichhhh btw is on Wednesday. Ive been very very very patient but I really can't hold it in much longer! I want it to be Wednesday SO BAD. I can already see myself running out of the exam hall when I finish Calc and screaming at the top of my lungs. Well..not really but you know what I mean.
Like I said, things are pretty different. Good different. Actually, great, fantastic, wonderfully awesome different. There is just so much to look forward this xmas break I can hardly name them all! But really I don't think I should waste anymore time blogging when I can cram in some extra info in my brain before my bio exam. tooodles.
Holy Sh*t. I haven't been on xanga for so long. I was going to switch to another blog site but never got around to that. Maybe I'll do it this winter break. For now I'll be good and stick with xanga.
Since the last time I blogged, a crapload has happened. Then again, that's what I always say. I see that I was counting the number of classes I had skipped to date two blogs ago. To THIS day. I've been skipping so much I can't even count. Maybe 2 months of chem, 1 month of math, 2 weeks of physics and 2 weeks of bio. Yea I don't even know why I go to school. This semester is hopeless. I just want it to end. Sure, I'm trying to get back on track with my "good student" studying habits and studying hard for my finals, but it doesn't make up for all the time wasted. I guess the silver lining to this is that I know how to approach my studies now so I'm confident I will kick ass in Semester 2. Lesson learned.
It really frustrates me. I want so much to lead a purposeful, meaningful life. I know I can't really go out there, fly to some foreign country and start helping out right now. I gotta be in school. I get that. But the point of school is so that I study hard, get a good job (which I am having a ton of trouble deciding still) and use whatever skills and knowledge I gain to go on missions! If that's what I want, why am I not working harder towards it? Where the hell did all my motivation go?
I'm losing touch with God. I need to step back and get some perspective. I need to stop doing things for myself and learn to devote myself and my work to God. I've been oblivious to the signs.
Okay I'm going to do something else... Who knows what. Maybe its studying.
